I'd Be Fooling Myself

I could wipe away the tears from eyes and hold the pain in, but then I wouldn't just be fooling everyone around me, I'd be fooling myself.

I'd be fooling myself that the thought of this could easily be erased from my mind.

I'd be fooling myself that I could be okay with a decision that would change my life forever.

I'd be fooling myself for thinking that things could ever be okay again.

If you just gave in.

If you just let me try.

If you just could feel the love there once was.

I don't want to wake up for I fear real life.

I know that real life is worse than the dreams behind my eyes.

I'd be fooling myself that I could lay in bed forever and never have to face the world.

I'd be fooling myself that real life could be better than the visions in my head when I sleep.

Because when I wake, I want to fall back asleep to avoid the hurt.

I just want to close my eyes and wake up to a dream, because real life feels like the worse nightmare there ever was.

I'd be fooling myself to pretend that I was okay with living this way.

I'd be fooling myself to think that I could not be scarred.

I just want to sleep forever and never have to worry about this ever again.

But I'd be fooling myself if that were possible, because then I'd be dead.

Burning Room

Sleeping is dreamless and days are so long

So hard to breathe

So hard to be strong

How could you do this?

You always said forever

Would you leave me?

You told me never

I didn't mean to hurt you

And I promised I'll try harder than ever

But you're wrenching my only heart

To love you more is my biggest endeavor

If you love me enough

You will see this all through

My efforts to see past your flaws

Just aren't enough for you

I don't want to slow dance

And I don't want us to go down

Keep me where the light is

And I'll always be around

Right to an Opinion

So as 99.99% of Americans should know, we have the right to free speech, and the right to express our opinion. Some people like to keep their mouth shut to avoid confrontation, and maybe I should have done this, but I digress.

Just last night, my future roommate had a status update on Facebook about some new kid singer named Greyson, here is what she said: "OK. I don't know wtf is wrong with you people. I don't care how young someone is, they still have to be GOOD at what they do to impress me. NOT just good for "their age". That's right all you Greyson fans, I went there."

And so being curious about what she was talking about, I looked him up and watched this video.

Maybe I was being a little harsh, buuuut here's what I said, because like all Americans, we have the right to voice our opinions.

"this is rushed and your vibrato is forced. wait til you hit puberty and see how your voice changes. then maybe you can consider voice lessons. stop trying to be the next Justin Bieber. one is enough. you have plenty of time if you ever want to become famous since you're so young. enjoy your youth while you can and don't try to grow up so fast."

And since we ALL have the right to an opinion, we also have the right to rebut - and boy did I get A LOT of crap for my comment.

1) uhh _ shut the f up! he is not trying to be like justin bieber they dont even fall into the same category of music and i have not seen justin bieber write any of his own songs or play the piano like greyson.. if u dont like it why are u watching it and voicing ur retarted opinion

2) _ what the hell? this kid is embracing his talent and for such a young age this is incredible... dont critique him and then criticize him for not embracing his youth. its obviously people like you who put pressure on him in the first place, and for all you know this is what he loves to do most.

3) _ seriously who made u the expert critic here??? he has a voice and my guess is that your sitting at home wishing u had a voice as good as his so stfu and get over yourself seriously

4) _This is his version of the song so it is not rushed and his vibrato is great. I listen to your video and maybe the experts at his new record lable can advise him better.

5) Wow........You must have a lot of disappointment in your life. What makes you think he wants to be the next Justin Bieber? Is he not allowed to put on a show and let the world see his talent? How is performing trying to grow up fast? Would you rather he be at home playing video games? You might want to do a little growing up yourself.

Were some of them right? Yeah, good for him for doing what he loves. Yay. I just think he is trying to be the next Justin Bieber. Whatever happened to staying in school and being in choir and band? Really? Must every child on this planet who has some sort of talent become famous?

And were they right to assume the things they said about me? Ha- right. And telling me to grow up for voicing my opinion is even funnier. I was in my schools' choirs from fourth grade to my sophomore year of college. Am I the best singer in the world? No. Do I have some sort of knowledge on what rushing and forced vibrato is? Yes. Do I think he should wait until puberty to try and get somewhere with his singing? You betcha.

Boy, do I love the Internet.

Photojournalism

Tomorrow is my last day with my photojournalism teacher and I couldn't be happier. The only thing I liked about the class was that I got to take pictures. The only thing he helped me with was picking the photos I was going to have in my final. Other than that, I hated the class. I hated my teacher, well hate is a strong word, but I felt like it was a waste of time in that class. Ugh, I am so glad this year is almost over. Anyway - you can check out my photos from the month long process of putting my final together here.