Day 28: A Song That Makes Me Feel Guilty

One - this is a stupid category for a song choice...not sure a song really can make you feel guilty? I don't know, I had a hard time thinking of one.
Two - this choice is stretching it a little.
I chose this song because it reminds me of a time I posted it on Facebook in spite of someone who broke up with me.
Our break up was relatively messy considering we had a minor feud online...for everyone to see.
In a way, this song makes me feel guilty because of the way the break up was handled.
Messy, irresponsible, and pretty immature - on both sides.
I thought I was being clever by posting things that made him seem like the bad guy, which I still feel to this day that he did break up with me in an ass hole sort of fashion.
But I should have let it go and moved on.
All I can say is a lessoned learned.

When is it My Turn?

Today I received a wedding invitation to one of my best friend's wedding.
As soon as I opened the envelope, I immediately knew what it was without seeing it.
I was so overjoyed...squealing with glee.
Then after I was done with that, I got really sad.
I realized I need a date.
Well, not so much that I need a date, that I feel like I should probably bring one to the wedding.
It'd be silly of me to go alone, not to mention the fact that I'd feel really insecure going to my best friend's wedding by myself.
I know I won't be alone per se because there will be a lot of my other friends there, but it's the fact that she's my friend...
The first of my really close friends to be getting married...
While I'm single.
Single.
Alone.
Without a boyfriend.
And going to a wedding.
I've been to weddings before but they were for my family and I was a lot younger then.
And now that I am at the age where it seems engagements are popping up everywhere, it's starting to take a toll on my emotions.
I'm happy of her.
So happy for her.
Because she is one of the kindest, sweetest, most genuine people I've ever come to know in my life and she deserves to be as happy as she is now that she is with him.
But I'm just wondering...
When is it my turn?

Day 27: A Song I Wish I Could Play

There are plenty of songs I wish I could play.

Whether it be on a piano, guitar, or whatever.

But most of the time when I think of something that I wish I could play, it'd be on a guitar.

I wish I could play anything on a guitar really.

So here's a classic...which would be ridiculous to play.

PS... I just picked the most outrageous one I could think of.

They Say Time Heals Everything, but I'm Still Waiting

It's been a year today that my heart was broken by someone I thought would never break it again.
Ever again.
And with Band Fest being this weekend, I can't decide if I'm sad because of what happened, or that I can't go.
Honestly, if I went, I feel like my memories would stir up worse than they already have.
It's not that I'm not over him, because I know in my heart he's not what I need to be happy....
It's the fact that I trusted him with my whole heart.
It's the fact that I gave up nearly all of me for him to love me back.
It's the fact that the one who you think is the one turns around and destroys your whole world.
It's the fact that the rejection still hurts sometimes.
A year ago today I cried a flood of tears - probably the most I've ever cried from being broken up with.
I'm still waiting for more time to go by where the sting of his words doesn't bring a tear.
I'm still waiting for more time to go by where I can be okay with being friends with him.
I'm still waiting for more time to go by where HE grows up and learns to be alone.
I'm still waiting for more time to go by where he realizes how much he gave up.
But what I'm waiting for the most is for someone to come along and sweep me off my feet.
I'm waiting to be rescued by someone who will make me realize how wonderful being with the right one really is.
I'm waiting to be healed.

Day 26: A Song I Can Play On An Instrument

When I was younger I used to take piano lessons.

I was really good, and my teachers always told me I have excellent hands for playing.

That was they're way of saying I have large hands for my age...whatever.

But I owned a keyboard that played different songs and pretty much knew how to play all of them just simply by learning them by ear. 

So here is one I know how to play on the piano.

How to Love

“When you love someone, you should treat them the way you feel. Sometimes words aren’t enough.”

I'll probably elaborate on this some more...but for now, this will do.

Day 25: A Song That Makes Me Laugh

Well, pretty much any song The Lonely Island does is hilarious.

Day 24: A Song That I Want to Play at My Funeral

My mother used to sing this song all of the time when I was younger. It reminds me of my childhood having my mother's parents live with us in the apartment in our upstairs.
Best house ever.
Such a nostalgic time.
As morbid as picking a song for my funeral is, there is no doubt I'd want this one.

Day 23: A Song That I Want To Play At My Wedding

Ever since I've seen The Wedding Date, I've loved this song.

Day 22: A Song I Listen to When I'm Sad

Well, I'm going to give two different songs.
The first song is when I feel like staying sad and want to feel sorry for myself.
Because let's be honest, sometimes we all need a good cry.
And just to let you know, how I chose...I have a "Crying Music" playlist on my iPod.
I think everyone should...what?
And I have A LOT on mine....67, actually.
So here's one.



And when I don't want to feel sad...well I listen to a happy song of course!
This one never fails to put me in a good mood.
Never mind the video...it's kind of weird.
But I love love love Florence.

I Just Can't Handle It Anymore

I'll tell you one thing...it still hurts sometimes.

But what hurts even more is to see you repeatedly do this to yourself.

Why? Why do you do it?

I know the answer...I've always known the answer.

You can't stop it. You just can't help yourself.

Learning to be alone is probably one of the hardest things to do.

Trust me. I know. You made me do it.

You made me be alone.

And yes, it still hurts sometimes.

But what hurts even more is to see the evidence of your problem.

And I just can't handle it anymore.

I love you. I love you as a friend.

I want to be there for you.

You say it's frustrating when people don't take your advice.

It's frustrating...so frustrating I know.

I want to help you.

But you keep digging yourself in a hole.

And I can't watch you do it anymore. I just can't.

PS - I was one who never ended it when everyone else did it to you.
What do you make of that?

Day 21: A Song I Listen to When I'm Happy

Well, typically a song makes me even happier than I am when I listen to it...given if it's a happy song.
But when I'm happy, I'm usually down for pretty much anything.
So...here's a song...I guess...

Day 20: A Song I Listen to When I'm Angry

So I just discovered recently that I had A Thousand Suns from Linkin Park on my iPod.
Yeah, I forget I have albums on my iPod sometimes, it's fine.
But one song in particular is great to listen to when I'm angry.
It starts off pretty heavy and very angry.
Then it changes and becomes pretty mellow.
So If you're angry, I definitely recommend this song.
It works you up, to calm you down.
It's great.

Day 19: A Song From My Favorite Album

This was a toughy.
Considering I have many artists that I love, and many full albums to my name, I had no idea where to start.
So I grabbed my iPod and started looking through it.
Then I thought, well how about choosing from albums I like as a whole.
So, that was really easy.
American Idiot by Green Day is great.
Girls and Boys by Ingrid Michaelson is sweet and simple.
The Lady Killer by Cee-Lo Green is just awesome.
RIOT! by Paramore kicks ass.
Heck, I even thought of My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy by Kanye.
And then it came to me without even seeing it.
Continuum by John Mayer - flawless.

Day 18: A Song That I Wish I Heard On The Radio

Uh Easy.
None.
I have an iPod for a reason - so I can listen to good music, and not what's on the radio - not that ALL music on the radio sucks...but
If a song isn't played on the radio and I like it, I don't want it on the radio.
Radio overplays songs, and then I get sick of them.
The End.