Crunch...
Crunch...
Crunch...
The wind is colder than usual
The brisk air pricks at my skin
Crunch...
Crunch...
Crunch...
Smells of diluted pollen
Dying trees
And wet leaves enter my nasal passages
Ah-Choo!
I'm allergic
But it's still my favorite "holiday"
Crunch...
Crunch...
Crunch...
The sun peaks through the clouds
It blinds me briefly
Then it warms my tingling face
Crunch...
Crunch...
Crunch...
As my favorite color morphs into a rainbow, I admire the harvest colors
And I sigh as a smile stretches across my face
Crunch...
Crunch...
Crunch...
I purposely go out of my way to step on the crunchy looking leaf
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Monuments, Melodies, and Me
“You make me happy, you magnify my better half.”
In times before, I listened to that line and agreed with it.
It was only until recently that I discovered how true it is.
Towards the end of my high school career, I started hanging out with people that partied a lot. I started doing things that I was brought up not to do.
I was taught to abide by the law.
I was taught that only the person you were in a relationship with was the only person you kissed…and whatnot.
Maybe it was the things I watched on TV.
Maybe it was the people I hung out with and the need to feel accepted by them.
Whatever it was, I was changing.
I always thought I was raised appropriately. I knew right from wrong because I was taught right from wrong. But towards the end of high school, I chose wrong.
Maybe it was because I had been a “goody” for so long that I needed to rebel.
Maybe it was because for the first time, as of my junior year of high school, a boy had finally pursued me. That’s right, I said as a high school junior – 17 years old at that. The beginning of summer after my senior year was the craziest time I’ve ever had. I won’t get into details, but I was becoming someone I thought I’d never be.
Then I started hanging out with someone that was…is the complete opposite of who I was.
He’s completely straightedge, without the look/style and scene, plus he goes to church.
Why would he ever like someone like me? I thought. And yet, here we are today and he loves me even though I’ve done foolish things in the past and still sometimes do foolish things now.
But I’m grateful to have him in my life.
I sometimes don’t know what I’d do with out him.
He makes me want to be a better person. I respect his lifestyle and want to be involved with it.
And if there is anyone out there that feels the way I do – I have some advice:
- Be with someone who makes you happy.
Be with someone who makes you want to be a better person. And if you already are a good person, be with someone who helps you to stay that person you want to be.
Be with someone who will allow you to grow as a person and in doing so, you’ll grow together.
Be with THAT person, and no one else.
I love you, being with you makes me happy, and I want to become a better person to make you even happier than you are to be with me.
“You make me happy. You magnify my better half.”
In times before, I listened to that line and agreed with it.
It was only until recently that I discovered how true it is.
Towards the end of my high school career, I started hanging out with people that partied a lot. I started doing things that I was brought up not to do.
I was taught to abide by the law.
I was taught that only the person you were in a relationship with was the only person you kissed…and whatnot.
Maybe it was the things I watched on TV.
Maybe it was the people I hung out with and the need to feel accepted by them.
Whatever it was, I was changing.
I always thought I was raised appropriately. I knew right from wrong because I was taught right from wrong. But towards the end of high school, I chose wrong.
Maybe it was because I had been a “goody” for so long that I needed to rebel.
Maybe it was because for the first time, as of my junior year of high school, a boy had finally pursued me. That’s right, I said as a high school junior – 17 years old at that. The beginning of summer after my senior year was the craziest time I’ve ever had. I won’t get into details, but I was becoming someone I thought I’d never be.
Then I started hanging out with someone that was…is the complete opposite of who I was.
He’s completely straightedge, without the look/style and scene, plus he goes to church.
Why would he ever like someone like me? I thought. And yet, here we are today and he loves me even though I’ve done foolish things in the past and still sometimes do foolish things now.
But I’m grateful to have him in my life.
I sometimes don’t know what I’d do with out him.
He makes me want to be a better person. I respect his lifestyle and want to be involved with it.
And if there is anyone out there that feels the way I do – I have some advice:
- Be with someone who makes you happy.
Be with someone who makes you want to be a better person. And if you already are a good person, be with someone who helps you to stay that person you want to be.
Be with someone who will allow you to grow as a person and in doing so, you’ll grow together.
Be with THAT person, and no one else.
I love you, being with you makes me happy, and I want to become a better person to make you even happier than you are to be with me.
“You make me happy. You magnify my better half.”
Sidewalks
Different paths leading to different locations
Up the stairs
To the door
Across the street
Flat
Smooth
Lead you to where you want to go
Some wider than others
It’s an unwritten rule to follow where they lead
Someone cuts across
They must be in a hurry
Another jogs
Some are fenced in
You’re fenced in for a reason
Multiple choices
Multiple paths
Some are straight
Some are diagonal
Some are short
And others long
They allow you to have a flat surface to walk on
No signs say keep off grass
But yet, you do
Usually
What is stopping you from just cutting across in a diagonal path?
It’s quicker
It may be a little bumpy
So why not cut corners?
Why not cheat “the system?”
Why continue on the path?
Up the stairs
To the door
Across the street
Flat
Smooth
Lead you to where you want to go
Some wider than others
It’s an unwritten rule to follow where they lead
Someone cuts across
They must be in a hurry
Another jogs
Some are fenced in
You’re fenced in for a reason
Multiple choices
Multiple paths
Some are straight
Some are diagonal
Some are short
And others long
They allow you to have a flat surface to walk on
No signs say keep off grass
But yet, you do
Usually
What is stopping you from just cutting across in a diagonal path?
It’s quicker
It may be a little bumpy
So why not cut corners?
Why not cheat “the system?”
Why continue on the path?
Etiquette Part 5 - Sharing the Sidewalk
9/24/09
Driving on the road, there is one simple rule everyone must follow - stay on the right side of the road.
If you don't, you're either going to get into a car accident or get a ticket.
Now, I wish the same rules applied to walking on the sidewalk.
Go with the flow of traffic.
Don't break the taboos of walking on the left.
It's more organized and it just makes sense. This way, you're not having to move out of the way, or make someone else move out of the way because you're on the wrong side.
Now, that leads me to not just being on the wrong side but taking up the WHOLE DAMN sidewalk!
What makes your crew so awesome that you can walk 5 people side to side, and make people move around you?
That's what bothers me.
It's not the fact that they're side by side, it's that they don't move out of the way.
Sure, I've walked toward people that were side by side and they moved out of my way...maybe because I was standing my ground or they were being courteous...I don't know, whatever.
But when I have to step off of the sidewalk to move around you, that angers me.
It works both ways - approaching and following.
I have long legs and walk faster that a lot of people.
I hate having to slow my pace because I got stuck walking behind a group of chatty Kathy's who don't know they're not the only people on the sidewalk.
Pick a side - no, get on the right side and use common sense.
All I have to say is one thing:
Move it or lose it bitches!
Driving on the road, there is one simple rule everyone must follow - stay on the right side of the road.
If you don't, you're either going to get into a car accident or get a ticket.
Now, I wish the same rules applied to walking on the sidewalk.
Go with the flow of traffic.
Don't break the taboos of walking on the left.
It's more organized and it just makes sense. This way, you're not having to move out of the way, or make someone else move out of the way because you're on the wrong side.
Now, that leads me to not just being on the wrong side but taking up the WHOLE DAMN sidewalk!
What makes your crew so awesome that you can walk 5 people side to side, and make people move around you?
That's what bothers me.
It's not the fact that they're side by side, it's that they don't move out of the way.
Sure, I've walked toward people that were side by side and they moved out of my way...maybe because I was standing my ground or they were being courteous...I don't know, whatever.
But when I have to step off of the sidewalk to move around you, that angers me.
It works both ways - approaching and following.
I have long legs and walk faster that a lot of people.
I hate having to slow my pace because I got stuck walking behind a group of chatty Kathy's who don't know they're not the only people on the sidewalk.
Pick a side - no, get on the right side and use common sense.
All I have to say is one thing:
Move it or lose it bitches!
The Words I Write
9/24/09
I'm going through I little bit of a writer's block...
I WAS going through a writer's block but you open my heart so that I can express it on paper
Through my words, I express how I feel but there's nothing I can say to describe the extent of my feelings
It's like my heart just keeps getting bigger
I fear it may explode
But I say, bring on the dynamite because I wouldn't have it any other way
Everyday, every moment, every second you're on my mind
Yet it doesn't distract me
It just makes me so grateful to have you in life
You take my writer's block away
You inspire me
The words I write are for you, all for you
I'm going through I little bit of a writer's block...
I WAS going through a writer's block but you open my heart so that I can express it on paper
Through my words, I express how I feel but there's nothing I can say to describe the extent of my feelings
It's like my heart just keeps getting bigger
I fear it may explode
But I say, bring on the dynamite because I wouldn't have it any other way
Everyday, every moment, every second you're on my mind
Yet it doesn't distract me
It just makes me so grateful to have you in life
You take my writer's block away
You inspire me
The words I write are for you, all for you
I Think I May Be Sick
8/12/09 - The day I moved into my apartment in Iowa City
I think I may be sick
Or faint
Or cry
(Or scream at my neighbors to shut the hell up)
As soon as I hung up my first shirt, it hit me
It's really happening
I'm finally away from home
For the first time
And I'm scared
I think I may be sick
Or faint
Or cry
It's only the first day and I'm home sick
What happened?
I was excited
I was so ready to be gone
But now I'm dizzy
I think I may be sick
Or faint
Or cry
Maybe I just need to give it time
I think I may be sick
Or faint
Or cry
(Or scream at my neighbors to shut the hell up)
As soon as I hung up my first shirt, it hit me
It's really happening
I'm finally away from home
For the first time
And I'm scared
I think I may be sick
Or faint
Or cry
It's only the first day and I'm home sick
What happened?
I was excited
I was so ready to be gone
But now I'm dizzy
I think I may be sick
Or faint
Or cry
Maybe I just need to give it time
Ongoing Cycle
8/11/09
"Every time I think of you and I find myself smiling, I immediately think of things that you did that breaks my heart.
I continue in this ongoing cycle of highs and lows until I reach the feeling of numbness so I can't feel anything for you."
I never finished what I was saying here and I can't remember who it was about but it doesn't even matter.
That's what I used to do.
That's how I used to cope.
But not anymore.
I don't need to.
Because you're here.
You're mine.
I'm yours, all yours.
Don't make me go back there.
Don't make me hurt again.
Let me smile every time I think of you and give me reason to keep it there.
Let me keep that ongoing cycle of happiness.
"Every time I think of you and I find myself smiling, I immediately think of things that you did that breaks my heart.
I continue in this ongoing cycle of highs and lows until I reach the feeling of numbness so I can't feel anything for you."
I never finished what I was saying here and I can't remember who it was about but it doesn't even matter.
That's what I used to do.
That's how I used to cope.
But not anymore.
I don't need to.
Because you're here.
You're mine.
I'm yours, all yours.
Don't make me go back there.
Don't make me hurt again.
Let me smile every time I think of you and give me reason to keep it there.
Let me keep that ongoing cycle of happiness.
Friday, October 2, 2009
Happy October!
OK, so I missed the first day but...
Happy October!
October is my favorite month for five reasons, the same five reasons I posted on facebook for why I love Autumn.
1. Pretty leave colors. *
Although green is my favorite color, I don't want it taking up my entire view when I look outside. I love the reds and oranges and yellows...so pretty. What other season changes the colors outside to be a beautiful sight? None.
*this also brings me to stepping on crunchy leaves. October is what I consider to be the peak of Autumn and you know what that means! Dead leaves that fall to ground and crumple up just begging you to step on them and make that wonderful crunch noise. I'm strange, it's fine.
2. My birthday.
This year I'm turning 21. Enough said.
3.Halloween.
I partially think that Halloween is my favorite holiday because it's two days away from my birthday and the majority of my birthdays have been themed around Halloween. But come on! What is more fun than dressing up like something you're not for a day so?
4. Carving pumpkins.
I love love love carving pumpkins and the whole creative side of creating food into a piece of art. I love the feel of seeds and goopy shtuff in my hands. It's also fun to do with a friend! (Don't be perverted.)
5. Sweater weather.
It's not too hot. It's not too cold, usually. Sweater weather is cozy and relaxing and gives an excuse to stay inside and cuddle up with someone you care about.
Happy October!
October is my favorite month for five reasons, the same five reasons I posted on facebook for why I love Autumn.
1. Pretty leave colors. *
Although green is my favorite color, I don't want it taking up my entire view when I look outside. I love the reds and oranges and yellows...so pretty. What other season changes the colors outside to be a beautiful sight? None.
*this also brings me to stepping on crunchy leaves. October is what I consider to be the peak of Autumn and you know what that means! Dead leaves that fall to ground and crumple up just begging you to step on them and make that wonderful crunch noise. I'm strange, it's fine.
2. My birthday.
This year I'm turning 21. Enough said.
3.Halloween.
I partially think that Halloween is my favorite holiday because it's two days away from my birthday and the majority of my birthdays have been themed around Halloween. But come on! What is more fun than dressing up like something you're not for a day so?
4. Carving pumpkins.
I love love love carving pumpkins and the whole creative side of creating food into a piece of art. I love the feel of seeds and goopy shtuff in my hands. It's also fun to do with a friend! (Don't be perverted.)
5. Sweater weather.
It's not too hot. It's not too cold, usually. Sweater weather is cozy and relaxing and gives an excuse to stay inside and cuddle up with someone you care about.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)