Ongoing Cycle

8/11/09


"Every time I think of you and I find myself smiling, I immediately think of things that you did that breaks my heart.
I continue in this ongoing cycle of highs and lows until I reach the feeling of numbness so I can't feel anything for you."

I never finished what I was saying here and I can't remember who it was about but it doesn't even matter.
That's what I used to do.
That's how I used to cope.
But not anymore.
I don't need to.
Because you're here.
You're mine.
I'm yours, all yours.
Don't make me go back there.
Don't make me hurt again.
Let me smile every time I think of you and give me reason to keep it there.
Let me keep that ongoing cycle of happiness.