I'm Okay

Sometimes my hands grip the edges of my bed sheets

I can't stand to feel the emptiness on my left

I usually sleep in the middle of my bed because that's what I'm used to 

But sometimes...

Sometimes I find myself rolling over to the right to make room for no one

That's when I can feel the emptiness next to me

The space that you used to fill when you visited

But those days are over and will never be again

But even though sometimes the emptiness spills into my heart...

I'm okay

And I don't cry anymore

I can't even force myself to cry

I don't even cry when I hear Slowing Dancing

I just feel loss

I feel discomfort

I feel rejection

But I don't feel sad

I don't feel sad because I know I'm better off without you

And it's taken me this long to realize it

But I'm okay