First Loves

Keep in mind a quote from the movie How to Deal, starring Mandy Moore: "First loves are never really over. Nobody's perfect, sweetheart. But that doesn't mean it wasn't worth your while."
Seeing this movie at the time, I didn't understand what that meant only until recently.

You'll always have your first love in the back of your mind. You'll always remember those wonderful moments you had together. You'll always remember the first time you held hands and those butterflies you felt when it happened. You'll remember how awkward your first kiss with them was but how completely worth it was after it happened.

You remember the first time you had dinner with their family and how nervous you were to make a good impression, even though you've been around them before. You remember meeting their grandparents...they always seemed to say something sort of offensive without realizing it, but that's just grandparents for you.

You'll always remember the TV shows you watched and the nights you spent together watching them. You'll always remember watching really stupid movies just because you were bored. You remember helping each other with homework and lazy days just sitting on the couch.

You'll remember those conversations that were awkward and hard, but you talked things through because you cared enough to make things work. You'll remember the times you tried hinting at them about that one thing you wanted to say but chickened out...or those scary moments where you thought you were going to lose them forever but you find out they didn't want to lose you either.

You remember the times you weren't always happy with them but somehow you forget about those times because maybe you still care. Maybe you still have feelings for them. Maybe first loves are never really over.